Inspiration

I have found inspiration in my life. It's not music. It's not drugs. It's not even a material object. It's a person. This person will do absolutely anything for anybody, without question. This person has such a big heart and one day I wanna have a heart as big as thiers. They will drop whatever they are doing, without any fuss and do what you asked. If you need help, they are the first person there to help. It's amazing how one person can have so much compation for other people, even for me. This person shows me so much love, and care. This person tought me how to feel like a normal human being, with more then one feeling. They tought me how to love, and I have no idea how I can re-pay this person. Everyday I learn something new from this person, and I can't believe I can call this person my girlfriend. Taylor Daniel is the most amazing human being, hands down. She shows me what its like to be loved, cared for every single day. She touches everybody in their hearts when they meet her. I'm so glad that we've been together this long. Baby, I know you'll read this so this is me telling you how much I love you and how much I appericate what you bring to this relationship. I count my lucky stars every single day I talk to you. I say "Wow, I can't believe I can call her my own. She's mine and always will be." This past ten months have been the most amazing months of my life. I'm looking forward to the years we're going to be together. Taylor, I love you, with all that I am.

Listen to the rain... it speaks.

The most relaxing thing in the world, is just sitting down and actually listening to the rain. I can't tell you what it is, or what its that way. It just is. I love sitting down outside on a porch to listen to the rain. It calms my mind and just... relaxes me. Simple as that. Anyways, didn't do much of anything today. I hung out with Cael and Alex for a little bit. Alex went to go pick up Chelsey from the airport and Cael and I went to go get food. I talked to Taylor for a little bit on the phone and then she went to sleep. Our 10 months Anniversary is coming up and I'm really excited. Her and I have been through a lot and leaped over many obstacles. I really do believe, deep down in my heart that she is the one that I'm going to marry. Without a doubt or second thought in my mind. She was built for me as I was for her. We don't fight over stupid shit, we get along perfect. She likes my friends and I like hers (finally!). There isn't anything that we can't overcome, and if there is, we haven't seen it yet.

Dreamless Dreamer

Well, I just woke up and had another dreamless night. Thoes been happening more often then not, but useally I do dream. Just lately, I haven't at all. I wonder if its because I'm "growing up" and losing my imagination? Or is it because I'm just too stressed out from everything day to day, that my mind just passes out with me along with my body? The sleep was good, but I just find it weird that I hardly dream anymore. When I do dream, the dreams are all the same... Zombies. Zomebies everywhere, no where to run, no where to hide type deal. Picture Resident Evil meets Dawn of the Dead. Scary shit. Anyways, I'm going to get started with the day and get dressed, call some people and go to Clark and get my test scores. Wish me luck.

First Thoughts

Somethings that just bug me more then anything are people. I know thats a very popular topic of arguements or discussions, but seriously. Some people just don't know when to quit. I'm not going to name any names, but the people who read this will know exactly who I'm talking about. I'm sick of being told that I'll never amount to anything or I'm going to go nowhere with my life. I think I'm pretty well on my way to becoming what I want to be in my life. I'm PRETTY DAMN sure I have control of everything and anything going on in my life also. Things just pile up and get to me. I need somewhere to vent and someone to comment and help me out. I know three people in my life that will do anything for me. Taylor Daniel, Corey Cota, and Thomas Morell. These three people are the totem pole that keeps me going and I love all of them. The sad part is I can't even count on my parents. I really wish I could, but I can't. My Dad and I don't know how to connect, and everybody knows how that works. My Mom just gets mad right off the bat. It isn't even worth asking them for help. The three people that I just said above, I can count on them for anything. A roof if I need it, clothes, money, help. I love my girlfriend more then my own life. Shes my world and my one and only. If people don't believe in love at first sight, ask about our story. It's a love novel in the making and its just the beginning of the book.