Sleep.

There is no such thing, I hibernate. I hate it, haha. Today was decent, I just sat around and took a nap. I haven't ate much of anything today, because I'm just not hungry, I guess. I need more social stimulation in my life. It's driving me nuts.

Another one

Sometimes I want to just stop. I feel like I've taken one step forward and two steps back, ever since I got here. I know all my posts are, "Oh, blah blah blah. I'm so sad and shit. Blah blah blah." I'm just sick of feeling this god damn way. I have a job, great. I'm (as of lately) paying rent in my parents house, which is shitty. I haven't paid off my phone yet, god damnit. No car, even a bigger god damnit. I want a god damn girlfriend, more than anything. Haha. Jesus Christ. I miss everybody in Richmond, and all persons associated. I miss you guys more than anything in the World. All was right during this pass weekend. Thanks.

DEAR FATTY CAT

YOU FOUND IT.

DAMNIT

I hate feeling like this! I don't know, I'm so antsy and anxious. I feel like I keep messing up, over and over. I want to do the right thing, I'm trying really hard. I just don't get it. Maybe I'm trying too hard, but I don't know. When I find something good, I don't want to let go. AT ALL. Maybe I'm just over thinking everything, but I have no idea. I don't think it's what I think it is (that sentance doesn't make sense at all). I just have a problem with over analyzing everything, I have the worst gut feeling in the world right now. I just need to calm down a little bit.

Christ...

So, I'm fallen completely head over heels for this girl. She brings out a side of me that I haven't seen in a really long time, and I like it. I'm experiencing feelings that I thought were locked and never going to be seen again, but I'm scared. I'm terrified because what if... What if it isn't that I think it is? What if it's just another lost cause and I'm stuck on a desolte road alone... again. I'm just trying to keep my head straight and not screw up too much, and hope that things develope even more. I'm starting to adore her more each day, I must sound like a creep to her. I hope I don't come off as that, because it would be the last thing I would want. I'm just gonna take a day at a time, and enjoy the time we spend together.

ulgh.

This is getting annoying, I thought things were picking up finally then I get hit with a bunch of shit I do not want to hear or experience. I just don't get it anymore, all this bad shit just keeps piling up and filing into my life. When am I gonna get a break. Where the fuck is my silver lining? Is all this stupid shit happening because I have bad karma or I'm a terrible person? Who the fuck knows, all I know is that this shit is getting annoying.

Rut

How do you get yourself out of a bad mood if you can't find the source of the discomfort?

Fresh Prince

Seriously, the best show HANDS FUCKING DOWN. No show has been as flawless as this one. In other news, nothing else exciting has happened in my life yet. Still just working and living pay check to pay check.

Fire ants man!

Snort a line of fire ants and you are just as hard as Nikky Sixx and Ozzy Osborne, but you'll die. Just down in Stafford for the night to hang out with Mike and Bham. Everything is going pretty well in Richmond. I need another job because I don't have much money anymore. Still kinda lonely, but I got all my friends and thats all I really need. When to two dance parties this weekend. The first one ruled really hard, and the second one fucking sucked dick. I'm just kinda worried about me being so strapped for cash. I need some food and some other things.

Second guesses.

I've been in a sour mood for the past couple of days and I can't figure out why. I find myself second guessing myself a lot lately, and I hardly ever do that. I don't know if it's because my job, or if its all these late nights but its getting to the point where I'm starting to annoy myself. Do people find me as annoying as I find myself sometimes? I hate feeling like that, I want to know whats going on in my head, but I can't find the right door to open. I guess everybody goes into this moods from time to time, but I want to be over it and find my old self again.

HI!

Tonight so far is off the charts. Saw Bryce play, listened to some sweet Ska bands and now I'm about to shotgun some beers and hang the fuck out. I'm super content with everything right now, and I couldn't be happier with where I'm at. I miss everybody in Washington, but all my friends here are helping me cope with that very well. I love all you guys, a lot!

Everything comes full circle

I don't even know how to express whats going through my head right now. I'm completely and utterly terrified of theses events that are unfolding. My future is hanging in the balance, and I'm afraid I'll screw it up.

These nights...

I never want nights like this to ever go away. Good friends and good times. Sadly, it all has to always come to an end. For now, I'm just going to cherish every moment.

Onward!

Holy shit, a lot has fucking happened in the time from when I last updated to now. Well, me and Taylor broke the fuck up. I moved to Virginia with my parents. Now I live in Richmond. It fucking rules, I would love to stay here for a while. I met new amazing people, all who fucking rule SO HARD! Mich, Bobby, Mike, Fuzzy, Adam and Justin I owe you guys a whole lot. Anyway, this is just a small update, I plan on posting a lot more.